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The lives of the poor are precious to Him

26 April 2007 Mark Wilson 3 comments

He will rescue the poor when they cry to him;
He will help the oppressed, who have no one to defend them.
He feels pity for the weak and the needy,
and He will rescue them.
He will redeem them from oppression and violence,
For their lives are precious to Him.
- PS 72:12-14

If you’re ready for a bit of a spiritual and emotional stretch then read this A Cup of Suffering and Joy

Years ago I had a vision of Jesus surrounded by a multitude of children.Jesus looked at me with His intense, burning eyes of love, and I was completely undone. He told me to feed the children, and I began to cry out loud, “No! There are too many!” He asked me to look into His eyes, and He said, “I died that there would always be enough.”

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Since the vision Iris has gone from caring for 320 children to over 6,000. My heart is so full of praise and gratitude to God for how He has blessed us with all these beautiful children. I have stood in awe as God has grown us from a few churches to over six thousand in ten years’ time.

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In the last few days I have learned more then I ever imagined about the cup of suffering and joy. Our nation Mozambique has been hammered with floods, cyclones and monster waves.

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As I stood in the ruins of a house leveled by a missile and held a weeping women in my arms, I drank of His cup of suffering.

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I also drank the cup of joy. God opened the door for us to provide food for fourteen refuge camps in Zambezia Province. I drank the cup of joy watching my Mozambican son, Norberto, lead the relief effort for the province. I drank the cup of joy seeing the faces of hopeless, desperate people run to meet King Jesus and thank Him for saving their lives.

Read more and see how GREAT the God we serve is! A Cup of Suffering and Joy

If you and I won’t go, how will He provide comfort, food, shelter? If we won’t donate money to worthy causes (the ACTUAL Kingdom, not necessarily a church building fund) how will others have the money to go?

There are countless small ways to make an impact. Even praying makes a big difference. Donate or help out as a missionary?!

Categories: Love

*Please* help these Jesus film teams

26 April 2007 Mark Wilson 1 comment

“How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of the messenger who brings good news, the good news of peace and salvation” – Isaiah 52:7 (NLT)

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Please watch this short video. It shows the awesome impact of these teams on an island. As the story unfolds you’ll see how some people were praying, then God gave a respected man a vision (“Prophet Fred”) and then fulfilled it… and then this team could go and spread the gospel. Hallelujah! How cool is that!?

Taken from their website:

There are 2,409 “JESUS” film teams worldwide.

The hunger for truth is great. Perhaps you’ve heard that funding for these teams is only adequate to sustain them through June. If sufficient funds are not received, it is possible that some teams may be curtailed in their work, or disbanded.

You can help them continue showing “JESUS” for a day, a week, two weeks, or even a month. Or, you may have the ability to help keep them on the field for an entire year. Just click on a button in a budget range that is comfortable for you. You will be taken to Campus Crusade for Christ’s secure giving website. God bless you for helping!

You can find out how to get involved. Maybe take a short term missions trip? Or Volunteer? How about some 10/40 prayer missions trips? I am seriously keen to go on some of those 10/40 prayer trips.

I can’t count how many times I have watched the Jesus Film. I own two copies and I’ll never forget who gave me my first copy. It’s effect is like the bible for me – it brings Him and His life into my home, into my consciousness, into my own life.

Heidi and Rolland Baker use the Jesus Film as they go into new towns and preach the gospel. There is no “power” in the movie, but God uses this movie – I think it’s because the heart behind it is so free and uncontaminated by big money. Freely we are given, freely this movie is given as well. No big money interests here… just 2,409 “JESUS” film teams worldwide loving people and bringing them freedom IN JESUS NAME.

Categories: Faith

Be like a river (AKA should Christians be rich?)

22 April 2007 Mark Wilson 8 comments

Should Christians be rich? No.

Even if I have millions in the bank (and I don’t) I am merely administering that money (being a good steward) on behalf of God to bless the poor. Nothing more.

He blesses me to bless others. He works through me to reach them. I am His body, He lives through me. If I won’t pass on the blessings, then He is unable to work through me. If I won’t stop and care for the poor, how will He bless them?

So… if you’re a preacher who has a very expensive personal jet – I say that you must sell it and give the money to the poor… and you will have riches in Heaven.

Jesus said to ask for what you NEED. Do you need a coat? Ask for it. Do you need a home? Ask for it. Do you need a car? Ask for it. Do you need new shoes for a formal? Ask for it. God wants to bless you and give you an abundant life.

But… do you need a second home? A third? A fourth? ten investment properties? Probably not. Do you need a Lear jet? Nope. Do you need 20 pairs of shoes? Unlikely.

Jesus said to give what you have extra to the poor. He said we can ask for anything at any time, BECAUSE He knows what we need and He will give it to us.

But that’s the deal. You give. He gives. If you don’t give… should He still give? You broke the deal.

Today I was in the hardware store. I happened to be looking at some kettles.

kettle.jpgI said to God that I would really like to have a see-through kettle (I love watching the bubbles) and I said I would wait for Him to provide it someday. I thought maybe I’d get a second-hand one (I don’t mind).

SUDDENLY right in front of me (at eye level) was exactly such a kettle. It wasn’t there just a moment before. So I bought it! I’ve been wanting and asking for it since December 2006 – and now here it was. Thanks Lord!

God does love to bless us, we’re His kids! But. He also will expect me to now give away my existing kettle. I won’t sell it, I will look for someone less fortunate to bless with my existing kettle.

He blessed me, I will bless someone else. That’s the deal.

So should Christians be rich? No. Should they have what they need? Definitely.

Christian should not be in debt or be in poverty. They may have money and have some nice things within reasons… but that’s all external… it’s what is in our heart that matters

Our heart should be to bless others, to help the poor, help the needy. Jesus said, if we are doing THAT (keeping His command to love one another) then whatever we ask for we will recieve!

If we keep His command and we need something, we can ask for it, we will receive it. We are representing Him, we are letting Him love through us, we are doing His will on the earth (to love) so WHY WOULDN’T He bless us?

We’re not going to go without and live like a pauper. No. For those who are obedient to His command to love, God wants us to EAT at a lavish banquet in the very sight and presence of our enemies!

Why? Because if they want to have the same lavish banquet, then they too need to listen to what Jesus said, what Jesus commanded:

  • Love the Lord you God will all your heart, soul and mind (meaning: dedicate your life to Him and trust Him)
  • and love one another and give your lives for each other as He did

But. His plan is to bless us and have us bless others. If you truly trust Him to provide… then you won’t store up riches for yourself to keep yourself safe. You’re already safe because He is your God. Whenever you need something, you can simply ask Him for it.

But… if money and savings accounts and insurance is your God… then you’re stuck serving two Gods. But if God is your God, then you will trust Him to provide for you. At least, that is how I live my life. And it seems to work. It’s up. It’s down. It’s maddening. But it works.

The best analogy for this is: will you be a dam or a river? A dam hoardes for future days where there might not be rainfall. A river assumes that God will keep providing and it flows and flows and flows, always trusting that God will send.

Categories: Faith

Fantasy stops us growing into adults

22 April 2007 Mark Wilson 5 comments

Faith in God causes us to have courage to step out and try things. Hope in God’s promises cause us to step out and believe that this time will be different to last time.

You’ve read Hebrews 11? Some say it’s the “faith chapter”. No, it’s the DOING chapter. The first book of the NT after Jesus is called “faith” is it? Ummm no… it’s called “The book of ACTS of the Apostles”.

Because of faith Abraham DID SOMETHING.
Because of faith Moses DID SOMETHING.
and so on…

Because of your faith in God, are you DOING SOMETHING? Faith without works is lifeless. The bible says so.

Healing is the same. You can believe all you like, but healing is something that we DO in partnership with God. You can have all the hope in the world, but until you take action to grow, you will remain immature.

Healing comes by giving and receiving love. Initially we may struggle to do this, but it becomes easier as we learn HOW to give and receive and we learn HOW to see other people’s boundaries and their preferences.

It is not possible to become emotionally whole unless we are in relationships with the people around us. But as we give love and receive love – or as we learn to… then we can grow, heal, evolve and heal and become whole.

We also can’t come to wholeness if we refuse to be an adult and grow up, take ownership of what happened to us and mature. What happened was not good, but ignoring it won’t heal it and won’t make it go away.

For the longest time I ignored what happened. I wished it away. I believed that believing in God would make it all go away. Years went by and I remained emotionally immature. I got together with emotionally immature partners. Together we struggled through.

Eventually I had to say – this is MY life. It’s not God’s life. It’s not someone else’s life. It’s MY life. Ok, I have been given bad things and I have deep scars and wounds… but this is MY life and I have to heal. No human will heal me, but I can ask God to help me and I can ask Him to send the money for counselors.

*I* have been given this this life to live. This is my situation. So I FINALLY began my long long journey into adulthood.

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; now that I have become a man, I am done with childish ways and have put them aside. – 1 Cor 13:11

A friend of mine from years ago was once about to commit suicide. He was so sad that he felt that he couldn’t live any more. He was literally about to jump. God said to him “go live your life!”. So he didn’t jump and he went and lived his life to the full.

How full is full? Well, that depends on you and your ideas and your energy levels etc.

The thing we fail to teach young Christians is the reality that the world will take you for a ride and leave you in debt and penniless. Governments around the world care less and less for their people and more and more for businesses and tax revenue.

But God has plans for you. He wants you to live an abundant life. He wants you to eat at a feast in the presence of your enemies. A feast! He wants you to have kids, have a house, plant a garden – even if you’re in exile in Babylon! He wants you to love and be loved. He wants you to share your extra clothing and extra money. He wants to bless you so you will be a blessing.

What happened to you has made you fallen. It might be hard to accept that God wants this for you. But that was your old life, now it’s time for the new man, the new creation, the new life, the Kingdom of Light (not darkness).

Only getting up and growing and learning to be an adult can result in you growing and becoming whole. Using “faith” is just an excuse for staying immature and it puts all your relationships at risk.

Just like faith without action won’t result in healing, hoping for healing without action won’t result in healing either. Only growing up and learning about adulthood will result in us becoming adults.

No wonder God goes on and on about the vital importance of loving one another! It’s through loving Cho that we could have stopped the massacre at Virginia Tech.

Categories: Healing

The desire to find our missing inner self (Imago – part 2)

This is a part of this pack of three posts

Recently I spoke to a friend of mine. I was explaining how people choose each other and why. She mentioned that as she grew up she always wanted her dad to tell her that she was pretty. He didn’t tell her.

When now… when she met a man who bought her flowers and told her that she was pretty… she like him! Why? He matched imago. She must have matched his imago, because he was attracted to her as well.

It’s the classic “you complete me” scene in the elevator in Jerry Maguire. And it based in truth.

but for Adam there was not found a helper meet (suitable, adapted, complementary) for him.

And the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam; and while he slept, He took one of his ribs or a part of his side and closed up the [place with] flesh.

And the rib or part of his side which the Lord God had taken from the man He built up and made into a woman, and He brought her to the man. – Gen 2:20-22

So a part of Adam was taken out of Adam and built up into Eve. Adam is missing a part of him. I am missing a part of me! You are missing a part of you. Women and men are incomplete when they are alone.

No wonder then that most people have such a strong desire to find the other part of ourselves – our missing part.

Many women might be physically attractive to me, but not everyone is emotionally compatible. So we look for what is missing emotionally, as well as a good physical match.

The way we choose what to look for emotionally is by looking at what we lack… the bit that is missing. So if I lack kindness then I look for kindness. Pretty simple huh?!

Why do I lack things?

Why wouldn’t I have kindness? Usually the thing I lack is something I didn’t get from my parents. They didn’t show it to me (it wasn’t modeled) and so I didn’t learn about it (internalize it) and so I don’t have it inside myself… meaning that I can’t do it or make it or generate it for myself when I need it.

So if it’s something I need and I don’t have it inside me (internalized) then I have to find outside of me. I will try and find someone who has it and can give it to me (externalized). Makes sense?

So we come back to my friend. She has found her other half. She feels complete now. Woohoo! The chemistry is running wild. The marriage (assuming they are married or preparing to be) is filled with joy because they have found each other. She has someone who has what she deeply needs in her life. She is complete now.

Because of all these wonderful chemicals running around, very deep emotional grooves are being formed in their brains as they make love or stare at each other or hold hands. A message is being put into their brain that this is THE ONE. to stop looking for anyone else. No one else is needed.

It is being stored in the brain with overwhelming amounts of yummy chemicals. They are in love!

We need this “burning in”, because life is not easy and times will get tough. The chemical burning-in process will help them stay together and keep the family unit stable for the optimum emotional growth of their kids. It creates safety for each other by keeping them together.

On the other hand, if they been through this process with many other partners (or with images through porn use) then the chemicals have happened over and over with other “partners” and the long term attachment with THIS partner might not be as deep… and the commitment and the compulsion to stay together might not work as it should. (But don’t discount the healing ability that God has! he can renew anyone and anything.)

And so we return once again to my friend, 2 years into the relationship… the chemistry has worn off about a year ago. Her other half turns out to be human after all. He actually doesn’t complete her and she is still a separate human being and still has needs. He also has discovered that she isn’t who he hoped she would be!

I want an all-knowing super-human. Waaaa!

What were they unconsciously hoping for?

Well… their very first experience of having their needs fulfilled was when their mother mysteriously knew their needs and provided warm bottles with milk. Food and comfort and beds all just popped out of nowhere. Everything was taken care of for the first ten or 15 years. Plates of food arrived on time, warmed, with just the right ingredients for our preferences.

That’s quite a lot of training! So we unconsciously think… here is someone who makes me feel good… but wait… why doesn’t this person just know my needs? Why doesn’t he/she understand what I am asking for?

We may conclude… if they don’t understand me, he/she OBVIOUSLY doesn’t love me!

Right?

Wrong.

What we were hoping for was a super-human partner. (A mom or a dad). Someone who auto-magically has a warm bottle to feed us right on time. Who knows what our body language means. Someone who reads minds and says “are you feeling ok?” when we just walked through the door.

Our partner is also fallen

But instead, after the chemicals wear off, we discover we’re married to another fallen human being. So there is no freaking way that person is going to be super-human. As children we had NO IDEA what our parents needs were – and we were not expected to understand them or meet those needs. They were the parents, not us.

But I’m not married to a parent. My partner doesn’t want to parent me. (That would be very unhealthy).

We have to slowly come to realize that this other person also has needs, also is misunderstood. Our partner also has the same training, has wrong expectations of me, also deep down expects me to be a mind reader, also just expects me to KNOW – and especially expects me to fulfill and complete them.

Time to grow up

The chemicals are gone. We don’t feel like we did. It must be HIS fault. HE changed. He’s thinking the same thing.

But now, if we didn’t have sex before marriage, we’re deeply bonded and committed for life. Our internal stuff is saying THIS IS THE ONE.

Now what? We now have to learn a new skill… we need to EXPLAIN what we mean to the less-than-psychic partner. We keep explaining until they get it. We have to WORK on the relationship. So do they. Give and take.

So my friend’s biggest complaint about her boyfriend is that he doesn’t tell her that she is pretty. He doesn’t reassure her with flowers. Why does this bug her? Because SHE STILL has her inner needs for these things. She chose him BECAUSE he did those things.

But now that the chemicals have worn off, he’s living a busy life, he’s got other concerns… and she still has her unmet needs. She doesn’t see the reality of him being fallen and broken, she doesn’t see her own brokenness… so she demands more… and he is stuck in conflict.

She thinks he has changed (he hasn’t, it’s just that the chemicals wore off). He most likely thinks she has changed (she hasn’t, the chemicals just wore off).

Face your brokenness and needs… and explain them!

You now have to face your needs, created through insecurity, fallenness, brokenness… and you have to listen to your partner’s needs. Each partner has to listen and agree to make the effort to meet some of the needs of their chosen partner.

The good news is that as you meet the other person’s needs, their chemicals can kick back in again and that old loving feeling can resurface.

More good news is that in doing this, you actually participate in healing your partner’s brokenness. Listening to their story, accepting their story,being understanding, providing what they need… these are very healing things you can do with/for your partner.

God is so clever!

I did it the wrong way once. I went through a divorce and it almost killed me. Since then I’ve taken 4 years to explore the bible and explore people and explore myself. Now that I’ve learned, I see that without doubt, God created something wonderful in marriage.

He designed it so wonderfully… the chemicals that start in courting and accelerate to attack speed on the honeymoon… those chemicals burn our commitment for our partners into our minds… it’s so amazing.

He made it so that we’d come together, we’d bring what each other needs, we’ll be able to heal one anothers wounds. Most clever of all, we’ll need to learn about love and tolerance and kindness and patience (etc.) so that we can do it.

God was looking to hard wire LOVE into our world and into our intimate lives – because He knew how far this world would go to try and strip us of our loving ability.

Time to learn adult ways

After the chemicals have faded and we realize that this person is broken and fallen just like us… we have to decide to refuse to remain as children, we have to decide to go forward to adulthood

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; now that I have become a man, I am done with childish ways and have put them aside. – 1 Cor 13:11

There will never ever be another mother or father mysteriously putting a glass of milk on the table because we LOOK thirsty.

We have to communicate our need to our partners (and the people around us). We will have to go to work to earn the money to afford the milk, the glass and the table to put it on.

getting_the_love_you_want.gifgetting_the_love_you_want_workbook.gifThis is a fantastic book. I recommend it to anyone either in a relationship or preparing for one.

They also have a workbook.

In my next post I’ll describe what goes wrong in imagos and how our needs can be exaggerated and how healing and forgiveness can return things back to normal.

Here are some related posts you might enjoy reading:

Categories: Healing

How we build an Imago – Part 1

19 April 2007 Mark Wilson 1 comment

This is a part of this pack of three posts

I always heard people talk about how me not forgiving others has a bad effect on me. I kinda thought, yeah, yeah, yeah, sure! Whatever. BUT. Then I found the scripture that says absolutely plainly that if we don’t forgive, God won’t forgive us. Ouch.

Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’ In anger his master turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.

This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart.” – Matt 18:23-35

So I learned about forgiveness. I wrote about this process here: How to forgive someone.

Now I’ll write about the non-spiritual impact of not forgiving. You might be utterly astonished at how your relationships and marriage is affected and bent by you not forgiving those who withheld love or other needs from you.

This post explains things, the next post will help us un-twist.

What is a self-image?

You know what a self-image is? It’s the internal subconscious image you have of yourself. The image of yourself might not match who you really are, but it’s the image that you have of yourself. People with anorexia see themselves as FAR fatter than they actually are. (video). Much of my life I would look at myself in the mirror and be astonished at who I see. Is that me? I was seeing someone inside me who looks totally different to who I really am.

A self-image is my subconscious (internal) image of myself.

What is an imago?

In my previous post, I mentioned a word, Imago. Forgiveness and not forgiving has a massive impact on our imago. What is it? Just like “self-image”, it’s a word invented by someone… it represents something going on in our heads. :)

An imago is like self-image, but it’s not about me, it’s about the person/partner/wife that I am looking for. I have a subconscious (internal) image of the woman I am looking for.

How is an imago made over time?

My self-image (of myself) is built up over time as I learn and grow, over the years, from the things I think people say about me or what I think they have said to me. “You’re a good/bad boy” etc.

My imago is made up over time too. It’s all about what I need that I didn’t get and don’t have. For example, I got some love from my mom, but I got no comfort. I felt utterly alone and empty. So… in my imago, I have a desire to be with a woman who will comfort and nurture me. I’m not looking for someone who oozes love (I got that, I don’t crave it). I’m looking for those women who ooze soft and comforting behaviours.

As I grew up, in my family I don’t think we connected, we didn’t touch and hug much, so I lacked intimacy. Therefore I am drawn to women who will have sex before marriage. Well… to be honest, I always end up with women who will have sex on the first night.

It’s simply because I didn’t get intimacy as I grew up and now I have in my imago (the unconscious image of who I need) a message like this “I need intimacy!! I must find a woman to have intimacy with.”

It’s pretty simple and straight forward don’t you think? So in this way we can see how woman are drawn to me because I am kind and loving and their imago (internal image of what they lacked and what they need) says they must find a loving and kind man.

If they lack boundaries and will speak nicely to me… then LADIES AND GENTLEMEN we have a WINNER! This couple will be in love and get married and be deliriously happy… until the chemicals wear off. Then trouble sets in.

This exact thing happened on the Good Friday night. I went to one of my coffee hangouts. I was being my normal kind self and my friend Bryce and I offered for two women to sit with us (there were no other tables) and before long the zing-zing thing was happening and she was all over me and I was scared and confused and trying to explain that I’m a Christian and I can’t get involved like this. I change seats to move away, she changed seats to follow me. She even wanted to come to church with me! hehehe.

It happens like clockwork that I attract the WRONG kind of woman. I could never understand it!! Until I learned about unmet my need as a child (comfort, intimacy, soothing) and then I can clearly see that she matched my imago. (I need someone who has what I lack).

No doubt she has an imago which is looking for kindness and love… so it’s a slam dunk! A match made… in heaven? I’m not so sure.

I don’t want to over-complicate this post by going on to explain more and cramming too much into it. So, in my next post I’ll explain WHY trouble sets in and I’ll explain HOW unforgiveness twists and bends our imago (the inner image) and ends up hurting ourselves.

Through forgiveness and healing, we can begin to untwist the imago, have realistic expectations, relate better… and have a better emotional life with our partners.

Categories: Healing

Want more?

18 April 2007 Mark Wilson 3 comments

How many people would like me to explain more about what I have learned about these needs and the imago and how to reduce that intense needy feeling inside? I have tons to share, but will it be useful to you?

Categories: Healing

Thanks Lord!

17 April 2007 Mark Wilson 2 comments

dadshand.jpgIn my previous post I wrote about how I feel confused about what to do, impatient about my growth and generally how to go forward. I blogged some funny videos (check out the hamster – a real speed merchant!) and then left for the night. I cried a bit, maybe I felt overwhelmed. But as the night went on, I got real clarity about what is happening inside of me (thank you Lord!) and how to go forward. God is a good God.

Categories: Healing

Seeing the truth, accepting, forgiving and recovering

17 April 2007 Mark Wilson 12 comments

You may have read this verse?

“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” – John 8:32

That verse is referring to Jesus as the Truth and His ability to set us free.

He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives – Is 61

But it is also a fact that when we see the truth in our lives, we can then be set free.

  • Some people need a lot of truth, because they need to understand why and how before they can accept the past and let go and move on.
  • Some people just need to know enough to be able to move on.
  • Some people (like me) hid the truth from ourselves, need to uncover it, consciously face it, process it, accept it, make some decisions to live differently, make a new life plan and move on.

Sometimes, when I am listening to other people, as they talk about their lives, I see what a normal life is like (an average life) and I sense just how lonely and alone I was at crisis moments in my life.

The truth I have to face is not what happened to me… it’s how it felt while it was happening to me. You see, I was alone in my most painful times. I was alone after sexual abuse. I was alone when I was preparing to commit suicide. I was alone after my motorbike crash (my family went to dinner).

Sometimes I tell people just one of my stories and I see the shock on their faces… and I wonder… was what I went through that bad? The answer is yes. And I only told them one of my stories.

Yes Mark, it was that bad. When I can face that and accept it, I can heal, recover, make a new plan for my life, choose new behaviors… and move past it.

I have come to see what a healthy life and a healthy home environment is like, and mine was nothing like that. Sometimes it comes into full view and I see how close to the edge I always was emotionally. I struggle to believe I made it through.

I can see just how much help God gave me – and I am so grateful.

The solution I learned back then was to be numb… to be a robot and put one foot in front of the other… to hide and deny my chronic pain… to just keep walking… and I got through.

But the good strategy I had as a teenager is now a problem for me as an adult.

Because I lacked comfort in those younger years, I decided “I don’t need no stinking comfort!” and began to consciously deny my need for comfort. But unconsciously (in my imago) I crave comfort and consolation and acceptance.

My conscious mind wants happiness and good feelings and my unconscious mind wants healing and growth. This unconscious need is not a need anyone can actually meet now – it’s too big, too deep. My only choice is to consciously pursue recovery and healing.

So it’s no wonder I have this deep need for comfort and acceptable in me. I was not comforted as a teenager and so somewhere inside I unconsciously crave what I lacked. But no woman or man or friend can match this chronic need inside me. I have to face the problem at the root and soothe myself and forgive, be set free and make new decisions for a new life.

I truly understand why people use alcohol, porn, drugs (etc.) in order to avoid these times, feelings and memories. These things (including sex, coffee, loud music) give comfort or take our mind off some feelings.

I want to be free of this need and these chronic feelings… and the only solution is to

  • keep on learning about God’s intentions for our lives (to prosper, use our gifts, be a blessing to others, have families)
  • keep on building me up into a strong person who is able to raise the next generation of people as strong Christians
  • keep on healing, with His love and the love of His people in my life
  • keep on growing as a man, as an adult, as a future husband
  • keep on renewing my mind
  • keep on forgiving those who did this to me
  • take responsibility as an adult and a man – to plan for a life that I enjoy (with God)

How do I overcome these years? By forgiving those who did this to me and by growing into a new creature, leaving that old man behind and replacing him with the new man… made in His image.

Friends may be disappointed that I’m not 100% better already. Disappointed that I don’t live up to their standards. Friends may have expectations and be disappointed that I still have addictions and dependencies… why aren’t they gone yet?

But I’m just me… I’m walking as fast as I can… I’m growing as fast as I can. I ask God for help every day.

People see my gifts and think I am further along than I am. They see me helping and loving and think I am all done and dusted and cooked on the inside… but it’s not true.

At least not yet. :)

dadshand.jpgGod is such a good God.

Where would I be without Him holding my right hand?

He could paper over my healing,
but instead He has plans to use the bad things for good.

I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand
.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
- Ps 73:22-26

He has plans for a deep healing. He is walking me through, He is teaching me, I am learning all the things He wants me to learn.

I love people, I love to be loved by people… but I know now, through this horrendous process that I have lived through… that God is an incredible and amazing God. Where this world and some evil people in it would tear me apart and use me, He builds, He strengthens, He shapes, He guides.

Growing… it’s a slow process, it takes determined conscious effort. Is there any faster way? No. I don’t see any. There is no other way than to walk through this (not around it). Through means to choose to learn, grow and then change.

I have heard that we leave the hardest part of our healing to the end. I know that I am almost at the summit of this climb up “Mt. Healing”. I am almost there. I have one hand on the summit. This is the hardest bit. I have to face the toughest memories, the sadness, the aloneness, the abuse, the feelings.

feet_in_water.jpgSomeone said to me “you’ve been through deep waters” and now I find myself surfacing. Not yet out of the water – and I really want to be out – but soon… soon.

I want this to be over, I want to be done. I want the kitchen oven to go “ping!” and for God to pull me out and say “done!”.

But first, I have to face this deep pain. Face it. Understand it. Accept it. Forgive them. And move on, be the new man, made in His image, not in the image of that old man/boy that I was.

If you’ve been praying for me, thank you so much. I have come a long way. I am almost there. God bless you.

Categories: Healing

The personal diary of a dog and cat

17 April 2007 Mark Wilson 1 comment

This is so funny… I just had to share it.

DOG DIARY by Nali

8:00 am – Dog food! My favourite thing!

9:30 am – A car ride! My favourite thing!

9:40 am – A walk in the park! My favourite thing!

10:30 am – Got rubbed and petted! My favourite thing!

12:00 pm – Lunch! My favourite thing!

1:00 pm – Played in the yard! My favourite thing!

3:00 pm – Wagged my tail! My favourite thing!

5:00 pm – Milk bones! My favourite thing!

7:00 pm – Got to play ball! My favourite thing!

8:00 pm – Wow! Watched TV with my people! My favourite thing!

11:00 pm – Sleeping on the bed! My favourite thing!

CA T DIARY by Polo

Day 983 of my captivity.

My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects.

They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength. The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape.

In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet.

Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at their feet. I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it clearly demonstrates what I am capable of. However, they merely made condescending comments about what a “good little hunter” I am. B@stards!

There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices tonight. I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event. However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of “allergies.” I must learn what this means, and how to use it to my advantage.

Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must try this again tomorrow — but at the top of the stairs.

I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches.

The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released – and seems to be more than willing to return. He is obviously retarded.

The bird has got to be an informant. I observe him communicate with the guards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move. My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell, so he is safe. For now…

Categories: Fun

What happened to Zacchaeus?

16 April 2007 Mark Wilson 3 comments

First, before I explain about Zacchaeus, let me take a detour and illustrate the experience of Zacchaeus in a friend’s life.

Abiding has been courageous enough to live her life in public view over the last few weeks. She let it all hang out… the downs and now the ups… and today we can see her breakthrough in this post: Back to Health She says so many wise things. This is a woman who is after God’s heart – as many of you are.

Here are some snippets, but I recommend you go over there and read it all and leave some encouragement. She wrote about:

How to renew ourselves

Abiding writes: I’ve gotten off track in alot of areas and by simply taking the time to get away (from the crowd) and replenishing myself with the life track study of who Jesus was, and what it was that he wanted to get us to understand, I’ve really seen a positive change in my thinking and my reactions.

It’s not about performance

Abiding writes: I’m not in this to compete with the world anymore. I’m tired of running this race by watching the dude three lanes over. With that mentality, its no wonder that I keep crashing into the hurdles. I’m setting my sights upon the finish line.

It’s about loving each other

Abiding writes: I spent all day Friday, and part of today walking up and down the aisles in the grocery store, and speaking to ppl and starting up spontaneous conversations with strangers in the parking lots. I’ve been blessing ppl with smiles and laughter, and filling them with the hope for a brighter day.

I’ve shared the truth about the love that God has given to a young man who was filled with anger and aggression built up into layers and layers of defenses and hurts and rage. And I saw his heart melt into clay when he surrendered to God.

God melted her heart

That is what makes me happy and thats what I want my life to be about.

It’s so fun and easy… what is the name of that gift?

Abiding writes: I’m not sure what “gift” that is…

Gift? No, it’s His core message. His reason for coming. His way. His lifestyle. To mix in amongst the people. To sleep at the tax collector’s house. To touch the sick. To hug the children. To encourage a widow. To talk. To sleep in our houses. To spend time. To abide.

You’re following His command to love others AS HE DID! Woohoo!

My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. – John 15:12

He walked with us. He hugged our children. He slept with us. He faced the storms on the boat. He walked on His two human feet next to us. He talked. He taught. He ate.

Fully God… He existed before the world began… and yet… He lived as we do on dirty floors amongst sick people. So far above and so down to earth. And He commands us to do the same as He did. Too easy!

Now that you’re following His command you can expect some really wonderful things to happen…

Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.” – John 14:21

and this it where it gets really good…

If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever— the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. – John 14:15-18

His command is so simple… and when we do it, it feels so good. It feels like He is with us… and that is because He is!

I often wonder, can it really be this simple to heal people (pray for them, love them, listen to them, accept them).

Can it be this simple to be obedient to Jesus? Is this really what He asks of us (to give what we have extra to the needy, to help the orphans and widows).

Abiding writes: Hallelujah!

Hallelujah indeed sister!! :D

Zaccheus

So now we return to Zacchaeus… and you can see the change in Zacchaeus is the same change that we see in Abiding’s life.

Jesus was walking through the town and He saw the sinner, a tax collector Zaccheus, in the tree. He said “hurry down Zaccheus I must stay at your house tonight!” and they had dinner. Zaccheus saw the error of his greedy ways and changed in his heart. Zaccheus gave away his wealth and committed to repaying double to the people he had stolen from. Jesus then said:

Jesus said to him, “Today salvation has come to this house – Luke 19:1-10

QUESTION: What is it that Zacchaeus did, that caused Jesus to say salvation had come to this house?

When you can answer that and accept it, you will see it is not about religious/ritual words that must be said… but Jesus is looking for a change in our hearts. A change in our behaviour that shows that we are keeping His command.

This is a part of a series:

  1. What happened to Zacchaeus?
  2. What happened to Moses?
  3. What happened to the Sons of Sceva?
  4. What happened to Peter?
  5. What happened to Jehu?
Categories: Faith

How Nehemiah’s city recovered

14 April 2007 Mark Wilson 1 comment

This is a two part article

The walls of Nehemiah’s city were fallen and they needed to be put back up to restore the safety of the city and the people. Each man built the piece of the wall near his own home. Each man rebuilt the wall near his home, the whole wall got built through collective action.

Above the Horse Gate, the priests made repairs, each in front of his own house.

Next to them, Zadok son of Immer made repairs opposite his house. Next to them, Shemaiah son of Shecaniah, the guard at the East Gate, made repairs. Next to them, Hananiah son of Shelemiah, and Hanun, the sixth son of Zalaph, repaired another section. Next to them, Meshullam son of Berekiah made repairs opposite his living quarters. Next to them, Malkijah, one of the goldsmiths, made repairs as far as the house of the temple servants and the merchants, opposite the Inspection Gate, and as far as the room above the corner; and between the room above the corner and the Sheep Gate the goldsmiths and merchants made repairs. – Neh 3:28-32

Will you take responsibility and build?

Will you rebuild the wall near your home? Collectively we can help rebuild the walls around society. Will you help protect each other and our kids and their future? The way to do this is…

  • TAKE A STAND for good
  • REFUSE to have porn in society,
  • REFUSE to permit children to be unloved,
  • REFUSE to leave the elderly uncared for
  • REFUSE to tolerate evil
  • REFUSE to watch bad TV shows
  • don’t buy rubbish movies, don’t go see them

Al Gore is worried about global warming in 150 years time. I’m worried about this generation around us and the high numbers of people living on food stamps, epidemic suicide rates, poverty, greed… and more. Skyrocketing evil behavior.

It’s here now.

It takes all of us, and it will be resisted

So we rebuilt the wall till all of it reached half its height, for the people worked with all their heart.

But when Sanballat, Tobiah, the Arabs, the Ammonites and the men of Ashdod heard that the repairs to Jerusalem’s walls had gone ahead and that the gaps were being closed, they were very angry. They all plotted together to come and fight against Jerusalem and stir up trouble against it. – Neh 4:6-8

Work together and resist

Then the Jews who lived near them came and told us ten times over, “Wherever you turn, they will attack us.”

Therefore I stationed some of the people behind the lowest points of the wall at the exposed places, posting them by families, with their swords, spears and bows. After I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, “Don’t be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your brothers, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes.”

When our enemies heard that we were aware of their plot and that God had frustrated it, we all returned to the wall, each to his own work.

From that day on, half of my men did the work, while the other half were equipped with spears, shields, bows and armor. The officers posted themselves behind all the people of Judah 17 who were building the wall. Those who carried materials did their work with one hand and held a weapon in the other, 18 and each of the builders wore his sword at his side as he worked. But the man who sounded the trumpet stayed with me.

Then I said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, “The work is extensive and spread out, and we are widely separated from each other along the wall. Wherever you hear the sound of the trumpet, join us there. Our God will fight for us!” – Neh 4:12-20

Did you see that they didn’t simply say “Our God will fight for us!” they actually KNEW that they needed to fight and co-operate together. They had absolute faith in God, but also knew that God has COMMANDED us to work for the good of our cities, COMMANDED us to turn away from evil… etc. We need to DO those things, and He will support us.

Faith is good, but we need to demonstrate our faith through our actions. Passivity is what got us into this mess. Churches that raise their hands to good thumping music, but don’t actually obey His command to LOVE one another and strengthen one another and support ONE ANOTHER.

We have fallen Lord, and we cannot get up. But we will try and with Your help and support, we WILL get up and we will complete this race. In Jesus Mighty Name.

I feel as if God says: “If those who are called by My Name (Christ-ians) will hear My voice (obey)… I will help.”

Categories: Faith

Nehemiah’s walls… rebuild near your home

14 April 2007 Mark Wilson 1 comment

This is a two part article

In society at present, the walls of our society have fallen down. What did Nehemiah tell the people to do? What resistance did they face? How did they overcome and make their society safe again?

Not sure that our walls are down? Watch this and consider that YOUR children live in THIS society:

The bald head guy is a well known porn businessman. Listen to their attitudes towards evil and sin and human nature. In essence they are saying “just do whatever you want”.

The other people may not be overtly evil but they have given up… and they are saying “nothing can be done” and “it’s just human nature”. They are evil in their behavior too, because they are doing NOTHING to protect themselves, to protect others, to protect the innocence of children and adults. BOTH will be judged.

Now listen to the Christians in that video and see how they have a hope for a better world. I agree with guy that says we are experiencing a mental health crisis of an epidemic proportion.

The evil people don’t care. They want the money that comes from other people’s addictions. What is an addiction? It’s the chronic need for a chemical in our body called dopamine (the high, the comfort, the feeling of warmth inside). Those evil people don’t care who gets hurt or who gets sick in the process.

About that video

From the official information:

Trailer for Traffic Control the movie.
http://www.trafficcontrolthemovie.com

This is a documentary that follows a new piece of legislation making its way to Capitol Hill. The Internet Community Port Act, also known as CP80 or Community Port 80, asks that adult content be placed on separate channels (ports) on the Internet so that parents can keep it out of their homes and schools. What ensues is a ferocious debate between parents, pornographers, doctors, technologists, addicts, business owners and children. But one voice is missing: our political leaders.

This raw footage captured by independent film company Living Biography outlines the pros and cons of free speech, the medical and psychological ramifications of premature exposure to adult material, as well as the financial burden placed on American businesses as they try to keep porn out of the work place.

Intertwined within the debate are the heartbreaking and heartwarming stories of two unlikely heroes: ex-porn stars. Theirs is not a tale of “rags to riches” but rather of rock bottom to redemption. The road they have traveled is an ominous parallel to the condition of our own country in its current state: a quagmire of self-destruction and addiction. Miraculously, they were both given a once in a lifetime chance to change their course and become something they never believed possible.

Will America do the same? goto http://www.trafficcontrolthemovie.com to buy the DVD and Join the Revolution

My growing intimacy with God

12 April 2007 Mark Wilson 3 comments

Every night I read the bible until I fall asleep. I never used to do this, but one day I heard of someone doing that and I asked God to help me do it. Now, 2-3 years later, I’m doing it. God is the last thing I think about in my day. I like that.

Recently I have been experiencing intimacy with God as I read the bible, well before I go to sleep. I read for a while and journal and slowly I somehow I sense His immense wonderfulness. I put my head down on the pillow and just lie still in wonderment at Him.

22 I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
- Ps 73:22-26

These verses completely capture how I feel. In the presence of perfection, I am a brute, senseless and ignorant… but He is with me, intimately holding my hand like a Father… and I know that I know that He is my portion.

I know that there is nothing in this entire world that compares to this MAGNIFICENT God in Heaven who chooses to spend time with me and chooses to reveal Himself to me.

After feeling like thrown out trash and garbage lying near the bin (not even in it) for much of my life, this experience is incredible – and yet I am at peace and not at all overwhelmed.

I wondered why I felt so happy and it was as if I could see Jesus smiling and saying to me “happy are those who have no doubts about Me”. That is a quote from “The Jesus Film” (which I regularly watch) and it more or less corresponds to Matt. 11:6.

Perhaps my steadfast sureness about Him has opened a whole new intimacy with Him that I could never have imagined – and I will never ever get used to. It’s indescribably and impossible to explain the sense I have of Him in that time.

His Presence. His gentleness. His utter overwhelming completeness. His magnificent loving nature.

My feeling of love for Him skyrockets in this times of intimacy. I decided I loved Him.

I love Him because He first loved me. (1 John 4:19) He’s been loving me for all of my life and I had no idea. Now I feel so grateful and I love Him in return.

Through extensive counseling, I can see where I have come from, what I have been through, the countless times He saved me, helped me, guided me… and I am so grateful to Him. It reminds me of the bible verse (v46-47) that says (paraphrase) “Those who are forgiven much love much” – Luke 7:40-47. I am one of those people.

It’s because of His character (He wants me to love people) and I trust Him completely… after all… He restored me and loves me and loves you – why wouldn’t anyone trust Him and follow Him?

I am aligning my life with Him NOT as an act of will or decision or even out of fear, BUT because of who He is, because of His values about love.

This reminds me of the promise that Jesus made, when He said that we can love in Spirit and in TRUTH.

For God is Spirit, so those who worship him must worship in spirit and in truth. – John 4:24

I think the truth bit means… when I mature to know Him (in part) I will naturally worship Him… because He really IS good.

I just lie on my pillow… thinking… He is so wonderful… so complete… there is nothing I can give Him. How can I love Him, there is nothing He needs? So I asked “how can I love you?” and He replied “keep my command”.

Once again my understanding of His character deepens… I am amazed at the depth of how He aligns Himself with the poor and needy:

And the King will reply to them, Truly I tell you, in so far as you did it for one of the least [in the estimation of men] of these My brethren, you did it for Me. – Matt 25:40

Mother Teresa understood this. She would minister to someone and know that she was loving Jesus by loving the helpless. I’m only just getting that. I’ve been a Christian all of my life… how is it I am only just getting this now? Why don’t we all know and live this? Why don’t we tell each other, remind each other?!

Then I felt to read Psalm 72.

He will rescue the poor when they cry to him;
he will help the oppressed, who have no one to defend them.
He feels pity for the weak and the needy,
and he will rescue them.
He will redeem them from oppression and violence,
for their lives are precious to him.
- PS 72:12-14

I felt to pray verse 1 & 2 from that same Ps 72.

GIVE (Mark) [knowledge of] Your [way of] judging, O God, and [the spirit of] Your righteousness to (Mark) [to control all his actions].

Let him (blog to) Your people with righteousness, (about) Your poor and afflicted ones with judgment and justice.
- Ps 72:1-2 (Note: my italics)

Wouldn’t it be awesome if YOU prayed for Him to give YOU the knowledge of His way of judging and a sense of His judgment and justice for the poor and afflicted in this world?

Imagine if He granted you that request… then you would be able to blog with greater accuracy and in alignment with His heart for the poor and afflicted. Our God is a great God. The only God.

Final note: I do not normally share from my journal, but for two nights in a row I felt He was encouraging me to share about this intimacy. I hope it helps someone out there to reach out and go forward. God bless you!

Categories: Faith

The church: battleship or flotilla of speedboats?

11 April 2007 Mark Wilson 2 comments

I am pro-church. I am pro-body. Pro-bride. I am excited for the existing church and I’m excited for the up and coming church. I am pro both of them.

I think many people will agree that there is a new wineskin already evident around the world. It is especially very obvious in Christian blogging circles as people – men and women, not just women – rally around one another.

The new habits we are learning and developing online will shift offline as we reach out to people in the physical world around us. Our skills are being born online where there is no existing way/rule to keep our thinking bound to the past ways we learned to do things. We are free to experiment here, so we do. Shortly, as the Holy Spirit leads us, we will do the same offline.

The defining characteristic of this movement is this: we are Jesus to one another. What do I mean? We let Him shine through us to the other person, by offering them our love and support.

In this way, we are keeping His command and what’s more we are keeping many suggested ways of helping one another.

I believe that there is also a counterfeit wave happening, a false delusion occurring, which is marked by signs and wonders. But I’m not concerned by that because it’s God’s church. He is doing what He is doing. My focus is on encouraging people to get into relationships, to heal, to love, to support.

If you’re involved with a formal church and you don’t like my lassaize faire approach… consider this: Jesus Himself said that anyone who is used to the old wine will prefer the old way. Check it out: The wineskin proverb.

I think that Jesus loves both the old and the new – and as an act of my will, so do I. I prefer the new, but I’d happily and glady worship and serve and love in the old.
As I drove around today I was thanking so many pastors of churches. (I was thinking of one in particular actually.) They have helped me immeasurably. I would not be who I am, where I am, today, without their input. I can thank God for bringing me into their “sphere of influence”. How could I have gone forward without their input?

But now it is time to go forward again. The question then is… can a church go forward into this new wineskin?

The wineskin proverb indicates that they probably won’t. But still… what if an existing church WANTED to go forward into the new wineskin?

It would take a lot of change. No doubt. The thinking is so different. The new leaders have been trained up over ten or twenty years. It’s not just something to absorb overnight.

The whole starting point is different. There are no metrics. No human goals. Just the guiding principle of loving God and loving one another.

only faith activated and energized and expressed and working through love. – Gal 5:6

Here is an example. My good friend is considering starting a Christian biker group. That is the new wineskin right there. To make a place where people can join, belong, connect, heal and recover.

What would happen if we all took His command seriously, to love one another? Just pause for a moment and imagine the world we’d live in. Picture this:

Two billion Christian living lives in which they live out their dreams! Living to their capacity, encouraged along by other Christians. As a result each one is loving one or more people. Each one is helping in some teeny tiny way.

Some are pastoring (meaning, healing and fathering or mothering the lost), some are prophesying (meaning, sharing the gospel and good news), some are evangelizing (introducing new people into this loving web of people), some are inviting others into their homes, some are… there’s no end of ways you can love.

Just figure out who you are and what you’re good at… and use it to LOVE someone. That’s all that Jesus really asked of you. So just do it!

It’s the parable of the talents! Only got 1 talent? Use it, He will give you more. Got 10? Use them!

Men love differently to women. Both are good. Some people are pushy, some are quiet. Both are good. Some are bold, some hang back. IT IS ALL GOOD.

No love is wrong. No type is better. No way is higher.

In this Christian world that I am describing…

Do we need metrics? Nope.
Do we need formal programs? Nope. Our lives ARE the program. We will combine and recombine as we need to.
Do we need to have goals and performance targets? In most cases no, but it depends on what we are doing.
Do we need training? Yes, in some instances.
Do we need a building? Sure, that would sometimes be handy!
Do we need rules? Society already has rules, but we can combine the morals and standard that we see in the NT and integrate them too.
Do we need elders? Yes.
Do we need to recognize who are natural leaders and learn from them? Absolutely!

I know that it kinda looks like a modern church with cell groups… but it doesn’t function anything like it.

The reason for the vast difference is because this move is where each person listens to the Holy Spirit, or for new babes, they listen to the command to love which is in the bible.

Another vast difference is that they take SERIOUSLY the statement that Jesus said… we are ALL priests now, we are ALL called… we are just called to different things!

Once again I would like to say that I completely understand that some people might look at this post and say… but this will end up just like a church with home groups… but it really isn’t.

Instead of the monolithic organization (like a battleship), we instead have a flotilla of small speed boats zipping and zapping, every which way. People jumping onto opportunities as they see them come up. People maturing everywhere. Making mistakes. Learning. Becoming stronger. Healing.

At the moment in many churches there is one sheep up the front following God and 5000 lambs following that sheep. This model of church is broken. It is not going to go forward. Jesus wants 5000 sheep. Learning to be a sheep means walking and trying and jumping and pushing and biting and… growing!

Some might say that this cannot work because humans need leadership. Yes they do. It’s God’s church right? Jesus said He will build His church. It’s His bride.

And besides that, I already see the leaders – they are scattered all over the place. As Jesus said, they are the unseen people, the rejected perhaps, the ones washing the feet of others. The ones running the school feeding project. The one delivering food to the elderly. The pastors (I’m referring to the gift mentioned in the bible).

These leaders didn’t do the work they are doing because someone told them to. They did it because they saw a need where someone needed love or God or provision… and they filled that need.

These leaders didn’t need anyone’s approval then, and they don’t need the formal church’s approval now either. God is their exhorter and encourager. You watch and see.

The one who will serve others – THAT is what Jesus said He is looking for in a leader, THAT is the type of person He will raise up in this new wineskin. He said it 2000 years ago… and the time is NOW.

What Martin Luther did was take away the barriers between us and God. He reminded us that everyone is a priest before the Lord. Now we will finally complete that, because everyone is a priest before the people too.

A good piece of reading about this type of contrast is found in this legendary open source writing: the cathedral and the bazaar. (Not recommended reading, but good if you’re into IT/computing!)

So if modern churches are battleships, this new wineskin is like a flotilla of speedboats.

Some speed boats will co-operate, some won’t. Some need to be together, some don’t. Some will be more powerful, some will specialize in speed. As long as you’re expressing your faith as love… you’re right in the heart of it.

only faith activated and energized and expressed and working through love. – Gal 5:6

Where the speed boat goes and what it does is not centrally commanded, not delegated down, not flowing like “oil” from some bearded guy up the chain of command.

Instead the driver of the speed boat uses five criteria to decide where to go and how to go:

  1. according to the command in the bible to love
  2. according to any further commands (rhema) given to the driver by the Holy Spirit (and this ability to hear comes over time, by walking, learning and trying!)
  3. according to the “degree of faith” that the driver has been given as a gift from God (but to rate his ability with sober judgment, each according to the degree of faith apportioned by God to him – Rom 12:3)
  4. according to the emotional healing, social skills and ability to lead that the driver has
  5. according to the spiritual gifts given to that driver

All five things influence the success of the speed boat. All five things can shift and change. For example we can’t actually raise our faith level, but if we use what we have got and He can give us more!

For by the grace (unmerited favor of God) given to me I warn everyone among you not to estimate and think of himself more highly than he ought [not to have an exaggerated opinion of his own importance],

but to rate his ability with sober judgment, each according to the degree of faith apportioned by God to him. – Rom 12:3

Use what you have and more will be given. It’s what Jesus taught.

Fortunately, Jesus isn’t into success and He’s not performance driven. He was born into a dirty, filthy and stinky manger and he got the money to pay the taxes from the mouth of a fish and He died with nothing… but He never lacked anything (thank You Father!) because He spent His life loving God and loving people.

He certainly was not performance driven, I hope you can see that. He is the one who is capable. Not us. He is the one who has the ability. Not us. He wants to do His work through us.

So can a church make this quantum leap? Well… yes! It’s so simple… His command is to love one another.

Any church CAN grip onto this teaching of Jesus and create an affirming church infrastructure in which the attendees can SEE that they are commanded to go and find a way to love… and they then GO and get into action.

A church CAN remodel itself, be a meeting place, a facilitator, a connector, a loving home, a family, encouragers, a place of healing for the community.

And the people who attend the church?

Well… you make a biker group. I’ll write my blog and volunteer for Fusion. Someone else runs a Christian Coffee club. Someone else starts a church. Every one of us determined to love and we’re determined to be the anti-Donald Trump.

What a wonderful world in which to bring a child up in.Where the child will receive love from so many directions and be encouraged to give what he/she has and become loving themselves.

Many many church leaders have taught about the coming generation of David’s. Well… you can stop teaching now. They are among you right now.

Will you reject them? Or will you find it in yourself to let them go on and do what they are destined to do. They do not want to work inside your group, they do not want to tamper with what you have built. You’re safe.

Just let them alone to go their merry way.

I leave you with this

Now in the present case let me say to you, stand off (withdraw) from these men and let them alone. For if this doctrine or purpose or undertaking or movement is of human origin, it will fail (be overthrown and come to nothing);

But if it is of God, you will not be able to stop or overthrow or destroy them – Acts 5:38-39

God bless you.

Categories: Church

I have become a man, I am done with childish ways (1 Cor 13:11)

10 April 2007 Mark Wilson 2 comments

I’m reading yet another awesome book, provided by my relationship counselor. Getting the Love You Want: A Guide for Couples. Dumb name but superb book. These authors have written a novel about my life! hehehe.

I was recovering from the counseling session and I started reading this book I was given.

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I had had two coffees and the waiter told me about Ristretto… so I had a double shot of that as well, because apparently it is very low caffeine and super tasty – which it is! Its just the crema and no extra water (which is what contains the caffeine).

But wait… I’m getting distracted. hehehe.

So full of “dutch courage” (the caffeine!) I read on, battling through the very confronting truth about my past… until I found this…

We all have an understandable desire to live life as children. We don’t want to go to the trouble of raising a cow and milking it; we want to sit down at the table and have someone hand us a cool glass of milk. We don’t want to plant seeds and tend a grapevine; we want to walk out the back door and pluck a handful of grapes.

This wishful thinking finds its ultimate expression in marriage. We don’t want to accept for getting our needs met, we want to “fall in love” with a superhuman mate and live happily ever after.

At this point I laughed out loud. “I’m BUSTED” I said and closed the book and left the coffee place. This is me. I’m just like this on the inside. I decided to print these words out and put it somewhere in my home. I have to get used to planting grapes and watering them.

I see now that the authors go on to explain just how pervasive this behavior is in society. (Paraphrased)

I remember the day when a client (whom I will call Walter) came in for his appointment with slumped shoulders and a sad expression. “Harville” he said to me “I feel really terrible. I just don’t have any friends.”

I said “You must be very sad. It’s lonely not having any friends”.

Walter said: “Yeah I can’t seem to… I don’t know. There are just no friends in my life. I keep looking and looking and I can’t find any”.

He had a world view that there were friends somewhere and he just had to find them.

“Walter, do you understand why you don’t have friends?”

He perked up “No, tell me.”

I said: “The reason you don’t have any friend is because there aren’t any friends out there”.

His shoulders slumped. (Perhaps this confirmed his suspicions?)

I said: “That’s right, there are no friends out there. What you want does not exist. Walter, all the people in the world are strangers. If you want a friend, you’re going to have to go out and make one!”

Walter didn’t get that creating a lasting friendship takes time and energy. Even though he was responsible in his job, he retained the childlike notion that all he had to do to establish intimacy is to bump into the right person.

He had not understood that a friendship evolves slowly over time and requires thoughtfulness, sensitivity and patience… so therefore he had been living a lonely life.

The authors point might not be easy to see in such a condensed piece of writing, but they are saying that happiness in marriage doesn’t come from bumping into the right person, that is a childlike notion just like wanting the glass of milk.

Happiness in marriage (beyond the first year where the chemicals are running wild) evolves over time because of conscious effort and investment (thoughtfulness, sensitivity and patience).

It reminds me of this verse

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; now that I have become a man, I am done with childish ways and have put them aside. – 1 Cor 13:11

It’s a hard adjustment to make, but an essential one. I also learned a lot of other things from that book, but maybe I’ll share those another day – they are deeper.

Categories: Healing

Building social capital (or… why I volunteer for Fusion)

9 April 2007 Mark Wilson 2 comments

I went to the Fusion “festival” last week. I volunteer for these guys because I believe we are called to love one another. Fusion is a great name for this group because they spend their time encouraging people to connect.

They do simple things that get people to interact. A prayer vigil where all the churches participate. A festival where people meet and connect. Selling hot dogs (snags in Aussie) to raise funds for a life-changing trip for kids. An Easter march with the churches involved.

Open events

All of these are “open events” which means that bystanders feel automatically included. You know how you can pass by a wedding or baptism and you KNOW that socially you CAN’T join in? Well there is a way to do group events where people are pulled in by the group.

It takes a minimum of 12 people to create an open group… 12… just like Jesus had 12 and then the 5000 was the result of the open group effect? Yup!

Why build an open group and build interactions? Because social interaction leaves the participants feeling warmer and connected on the inside. This is THE reason why Jesus’ command is to love one another. To aid in recovery, to help resist sin (out of loneliness), to repair damage before it becomes critical.

Counselors are the new aunts and uncles

In my recovery over the years it has been so sad to have to PAY $ counselors for friendship. (With the exception of Daryl.) I’m pretty much healed up now, so I can maintain my own healthy friendships… but back then, without access to counselors I would have been in such a bad place.

If enough people in the church loved one another, I wouldn’t have needed to spend THOUSANDS in counseling. People in the church don’t invite you home or come close enough to help a person heal by loving them. We’re too busy. We’re too insular. We need our “boundaries”. That damaged person might upset the delicate balance in my family. Etc.

Love… it’s a command

This is not what Jesus taught. He said to give the shirt off our back. He said to help the destitute. We must love one another.

He saw that there was no one, he was appalled that there was no one to intervene; so his own arm worked salvation for him … Isaiah 59:16 (NIV)

So… you probably get how important all of this. Some will know because they have been there, some will know because they ARE there, some will just have to accept that it is true.

Social capital

The concept of social capital is vital to understand, if we are to consider how to turn back the tide of porn and evil and sin that is washing across our world. It can be done, but only if we will actively love one another.

Social capital is a core concept in business, economics, organizational behavior, political science, and sociology, defined as the advantage created by a person’s location in a structure of relationships. It explains how some people gain more success in a particular setting through their superior connections to other people.

closed-cafe.jpgHave you ever noticed how you can have coffee amongst 20 people and still be alone? Or in a movie cinema with 500 and leave feeling all alone?

The picture to the left shows a “closed” style of coffe/cafe shop. In this scenario it is not acceptable to interact with people at another table, even if you mean well

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Now on the left I have a picture of an “open” style cafe. I experienced this in Madrid in Spain. The difference is HUGE. With the open style, you are absolutely, definitely, certainly, without doubt… going to interact with bystanders, people seated nearby, passers by.

It’s FANTABULOUS because you can’t remain alone and unconnected. Passers by ask for directions. People talk about the latest score in a recent footie game.

So the design of the place really establishes the way people interact.

Building stronger friendship ties

They say that people can only sustain 50 weak ties to friends. For me it’s more like 15. hehehe.

Social capital is built up between people when they interact. It’s that warm feeling. It starts off as a weak emotional bond. It is built through gossip. Small talk.

How does a weak tie become a stronger tie? Chit chat build stronger and stronger ties between people. If you want better friendships, then chit chat more! Short phone calls. Yak. Yak. Keep it light. The relationship will deepen.

Volunteering for Fusion

And that is why I like volunteering my time with Fusion. Volunteering doesn’t pay anything. The reward is in working together for a good cause… the vital importance of creating opportunities for people to connect and relate. They know about the vital importance of emotional health between people and how to create it.

Categories: Church

But seek first of all His kingdom and His righteousness

6 April 2007 Mark Wilson 4 comments

I just read this excellent post: The Charisma of the Message by Neva.

You know what? I think it’s time to wake up and smell the coffee. It ain’t gonna happen. Not the way we do it and have done it for 2000 years.

How many times must we go around this mountain before we figure that out? It’s the blind leading the blind, blindly!

I believe that there is a reason generations after generations, 2000 years later are still not able to reach the heights that Jesus said we would reach. We have failed. Let’s admit it. Let’s learn and change and then go on to new things.

We are just like the Jews in our stubbornness.  WE CAN DO IT, we cry loudly and we rush forward yet again. I once saw a war movie called “Hamburger Hill” where they assaulted this hill over and over, the multitudes were killed in carnage. slaughtered.

The Jews could not do it

What did the Jews do? God said they should be righteous, so they tried and tried for 2000+ years. And failed. No amount of teaching or trying could make the Jews achieve their goals. The law was a TEACHER/TUTOR to prove that we cannot do it.

And neither can we!

Well in that same way I believe after 2000 years of abject failure in living as Jesus said we should… we have to conclude no new exhortation or new teaching will do it.

What’s the solution?

What would do it for the Jews is God, is what will do it for us. Jesus. Meaning… we need to be filled with Him and to invest into the Kingdom of Love.

But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will be given you besides. – Matt 6:33

What does that verse say?

  • Seek FIRST the Kingdom of God – which is love

Nor will people say, Look! Here [it is]! or, See, [it is] there! For behold, the kingdom of God is within you [in your hearts] and among you [surrounding you] – Luke 17:21

  • Seek His way of being righteousness – well that is a clear reference to Jesus being the ONLY way to make us righteous by faith
  • AND THEN these things are added to us.

If we don’t FIRST go for love and righteousness we won’t achieve anything. And this is pretty much where I believe Christianity is today. Many buildings, few healings, few miracles, little authority – because like the Jews we have not listened to the actual teaching. We’re still trying our various programs. Our programs are like addictions. They draw us away from the teachings of Jesus.

I know in my own life that things took off like a rocket when I entered into HIS righteousness (not mine) and focussed exclusively on love and loving in practical ways.

Yesterday I prayed and saw COMPLETE healing for an animal… but the animal I prayed for was DEAD. Yes. Dead. Yesterday I raised an animal from the dead. I’ll blog about it next week.

Two words:  love and (His) righteousness

I’ll leave you with this verse:

For [if we are] in Christ Jesus, neither circumcision nor uncircumcision counts for anything, but only faith activated and energized and expressed and working through love. – Gal 5:6

Faith (righteousness) and love. It’s all that matters. If you’re following any church teaching that doesn’t match up with what Jesus taught, you are free to reconsider and be set free from it.

Categories: Church

My ideal partner

6 April 2007 Mark Wilson 4 comments

theatr_sydneyoperalg.jpgMany years ago I narrowed down what I am looking for in a partner to this: she loves to experience an evening at the Sydney Opera House, going to a performance and then a fine dinner together – all dressed up, sexy and flirtatious!

BUT that’s the icing on the cake – it’s not the cake itself.

aids-orphans.jpgThe cake itself is the meat and substance of our lives together – and that is serving God by helping the helpless. That may mean living in a slum or having vomit on our clothes as we hold an ill child.

My dream partner knows that it’s just a romantic to be holding hands as we walk to our table at the Opera House, as it is to be walking hand in hand in the poorest of the poor parts of the world, surrounded by filth and muck.

We’re together because we love the inside of each other, not what is on the outside. Having said that, I am a guy and so it kinda does matter. hehehe. But wherever we are, there is love. We know the highlight of the day is not money or TV, it’s our love and our family – and we protect and cherish that.

We’re excited about our lives because God is manifestly with us as we do His work and He works through us.

Nor will people say, Look! Here [it is]! or, See, [it is] there! For behold, the kingdom of God is within you [in your hearts] and among you [surrounding you] – Luke 17:21

I am so looking forward to it. If you are inclined to pray, please pray for her and her family.

Categories: Me, myself, I

Men and women

6 April 2007 Mark Wilson 3 comments

You may know that I have begun to write the Christian Men blog with Derek. (By the time you read this I will have written the most amazing discovery about women that I have ever come across – how women love, part 1 – it explained SO MUCH to me. Visit and enjoy!)

Well while I’m new to blogging about manhood, Emily has been writing about Christian femininity for ages since I first read her blog a year or more ago. Here is an example of her writing: Building homes for Christ – part 1 . God has spoken about my home being a dwelling place for Him. And indeed my friend Jonathan and I were commenting last night on how we can FEEL God’s presence in my home. Woohoo!

And me?

The thing is, if I was a chick, Emily’s posts would be an inspiration for my life. Instead, since I am a bloke (woohoo!) I can’t really get into her posts at all… but they let me know that there are women who will want to be the part of Him that I am not.

Meaning… men and women are both made in His image, but neither is wholly His image without the other (I suspect).

So I’m trying to let Him shape me (and I’m actively shaping myself) into the masculine of His image which suits me. So it’s encouraging to see a single woman doing the same.

I do this growth thing in a blokey way I guess (I’m not much into fine china). I am reading about manhood (eg: Tender Warrior) and I’m going to a “relationship counselor” to unlearn my parents example and to learn God’s way – or at least find a way that suits who I am.

I’m also improving my own home, brewing my own beer, going to vast numbers of sports games (and behaving badly) and generally owning my own life – and of course reading the bible and praying about it all.

We’re all different

We’re all in this at different places. A lot of this is cultural. Personalities. Personal preferences. There is no right and wrong. One of the things I am afraid of is meeting someone I like and who likes me, but she can’t accept my past because she always wanted to marry a perfect man.

I admire so many other women as they travel through life: Abiding, Diana, Neva and so many more people. I am sure that we each do this life thing in our own way and God is totally cool with that. I’m just finding my way.

Categories: Faith

Good Friday… and some links

6 April 2007 Mark Wilson 3 comments

Ok, before I get into the meat of this post, if you’re looking for a light way to end the week, try this: Coffee…

You know you’re drinking too much coffee when:
You get a speeding ticket even when you’re parked.
You speed walk in your sleep.
You grind your coffee beans in your mouth.

A Dad in Heaven

I feel as though God is saying to me “you are growing up before Me” and I take that to mean that He is watching over my growth and I certainly will end up the man that He sees I am capable of being. Believing this gives me SUCH a feeling of safety and comfort, to know God is watching and guiding like a Dad.

At my relationship counselor’s advice, I’ve also paused my female friendships. This has been an eye opener experience for me. It’s hard to explain what i have learned, but it’s been interesting.

Go Derek!

(No, he not a relation of Bo Derek.) Anyhoo… in the meantime, Derek (cutfromtherock) is in a 30 day exploration of the bible to harvest lessons on masculinity. It’s interesting that Derek has read Wild at Heart 7 times and yet God has now sent Derek to the bible to find out about manhood. That is exactly what Emily talked about here, that she found the bible is a better source of info on these issues than some books like Wild at Heart.

Great posts

Moving along… please read these excellent posts Lies of Rejection and Suicide and Christianity. Here is a snippet:

Is suicide wrong? There are 6-7 incidents of it in the Bible (see here)and many thoughts about what happens to someone if they do kill themselves. Christians opinions are often very strong about suicide and whether someone who commits suicide will go to heaven or hell. I’m not qualified to answer that but here is an article that addresses these issues.

Go total!

Please check out and encourage totaltransformation as he loses weight. Day Fifty-Five: 184 Today He posted some pictures of his new body shape. Awesome inner strength huh?!

Good Friday

Happy Good Friday! From wikipedia…

Good Friday is the Friday before Easter or Pascha. It commemorates the crucifixion and death of Jesus at Calvary. This year, it is on April 6, 2007.

God bless you guys!

Categories: Church

How to forgive someone

4 April 2007 Mark Wilson 38 comments

Have you ever felt like dark things are all around you and no matter how hard you pray, they don’t leave. You feel constantly pressured. This is called being “hedged in”.

In my experience, and by observation with the people I talk to, it happens when you are refusing to forgive someone for what they have done.

The tough truth of the situation is that if you won’t forgive, you will not be forgiven. Think about the Lords prayer. “Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.” So what happens if you won’t forgive those trespasses?

What does the bible say?

“Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand talents was brought to him. Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.

“The servant fell on his knees before him. ‘Be patient with me,’ he begged, ‘and I will pay back everything.’ The servant’s master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.

“But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii. He grabbed him and began to choke him. ‘Pay back what you owe me!’ he demanded. “His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, ‘Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.’ “But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.

Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’ In anger his master turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.

This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart.” – Matt 18:23-35

If you feel hedged in and always under pressure, you might very well be in the torture prison that Jesus taught about.

So how do you get out of it? Forgive!

Some of you are saying… but I can’tyou don’t know what he/she did. I just can’t.

Some people are just INCREDIBLY angry and they can’t forgive. I know how that feels. The kind of unforgiveness is really just anger. You’re angry. Very angry. Immensely angry.

Here’s what I did.

Releasing spiritual debt

I will probably never forget the exact day on which I did this.

Let’s look at the sin that has been committed against you as a debt. Someone has sinned against you and now owes you a spiritual debt.

Step one is to separate the spiritual debt from your anger. The bible says:

BE angry, but do not sin (Eph 4:26)

So you don’t need to stop being angry right now. Your mission… should you choose to accept it… is to release them in prayer from their spiritual debt to you.

Your prayer can be as simple as this: “Lord Jesus, please do not hold their actions against them. I declare that they do not have any debt to me”. You might want to add your own authentic words to this. Really let them go from spiritual debt.

That takes care of the torture prison. The enemy should leave right away.

Thanking God for the good

This is the second step I took.

God promises to use all things for the good of those who love Him. That’s you and me!

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. – Rom 8:28

Perhaps you’ve been rejected or abused. Have you used those experiences to help other people? Can you thank God for using those experiences to help others?

DO NOT thank Him for the experience of being sinned against. No, thank Him for using it for good in some way.

In my case intense loneliness in my childhood was the memory. But now I write this blog and help hundreds of people overcome emptiness and loneliness. It’s a bad memory, but God is using it for the good. I can smile now.

I can move on.

Emotional release

But the thing still happened right? You might still have some anger to deal with. As long as your anger gets processed, you will be able to go to a deeper level of forgiveness, where you EMOTIONALLY release the event or person.

Step three happened for me today. I read a book for men about women. I was just amazed to see into the world of a woman. How emotional it is. How they love. How they view the world through a lens of love and emotions.

As I understood that, I “saw” that my own mother had seen her own family and me in that way. Let me say that my family was responsible for a SHOCKING amount of pain in my young life which I am only now working through. But… when I could see that she really did do her best, that she tried to love, that she lived this life of trying her best… I could release her EMOTIONALLY.

My childhood had been massively lonely and painful, but I could “see” my mother’s angst as she tried her best to create a loving environment. I could truly see it. She tried. I can let that go now.

And so I have felt unbelievably FREE and happy for most of the day. I’m moving on.

Summary

You can do this too. Just take it step by step. See it as layers. Forgive the spiritual debt to begin with. Then go on to the other emotional layers. It will be a different process for you… but the end result is the same. Freedom and release FOR YOU.

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Categories: Faith

Faith, HOPE and love – part 2

This post comes in three parts. Faith. Hope. Love.

It is the central issue in Christianity. It is the key to recovery from addiction. It is THE thing to understand if you want to prosper in life.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. – 1 Cor 13:13

This second post is about hope.

Hope

In Hebrews 6 Paul says that faith (that we are made righteous with God) is an elementary teaching and foundational teaching – he says he wants to move on to maturity!

Therefore let us leave the elementary teachings about Christ and go on to maturity, not laying again the foundation of repentance from acts that lead to death, and of faith in God, instruction about baptisms, the laying on of hands, the resurrection of the dead, and eternal judgment. And God permitting, we will do so.Hebrews 6:1-3

WOOOAH!!! Check that out. He said two things:

  1. Let us leave the the elementary teachings of repentance and faith in God, baptism
  2. and go on to maturity

If the concepts of Jesus making us holy, pure and righteous in God’s eyes (Col 1:22-23) is just foundational, elementary and immature stuff… what on earth could maturity possibly be?

Let’s read on a few sentences further to find out what maturity is!

Because God wanted to make the unchanging nature of his purpose very clear to the heirs of what was promised, he confirmed it with an oath.

God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope offered to us may be greatly encouraged. We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. – Hebrews 6:17-19

I highlighted two sentences in that scripture.

  • the heirs of what was promised
  • take hold of the hope offered to us
  • We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure

The heirs of what? Of the promises made to Abraham.

If you haven’t read those promises, then I hope you do. There are untold and incredible riches in those promises. Blessings. Amazing stuff.

My point about hope is this: if you believe that Jesus has completely and utterly made you clean by paying for your sins on the cross… then you have been restored to God (because He cannot look on anything that has sin).

If you have this faith in Jesus, then a great doorway into the Holy of Holies has been opened to you. You can go in. It will happen throughout your life. You will come into His Kingdom. He will bring you in.

If you are recovering from an addiction or from worse, perhaps SRA or any kind of occult involvement, making your faith complete (by finding out what Jesus Christ did for you and accepting that He did it for you PERSONALLY) will set you on the road to spiritual release.

But then take it further. Now have hope for God to reach into your life and restore you. He did it for me. He is good and faithful to do it for you. Have hope. Be confident that He will do it for you.

Hope is what will cause you to make positive decisions. Hope will give you a reason to get up in the morning. Hope is what causes us to smile at a blue sky. Hope helps us say “I can!” even if we couldn’t before.

If you believe that Jesus has set you free, then the spiritual forces that bind you will no longer have a right to be there. Your sins are paid for. They have no legal rights.

Now, we need a reality check. The process of removing those forces takes a while, because in God’s mercy He knows that removing them can be difficult and downright tiring sometimes. He does it bit by bit. Bu8t have hope… He does do it. As you get stronger, perhaps He will have you assist Him in doing it. (If you’re called to warfare, He DEFINITELY will have you do it – so you can learn from it.)

In His mercy He will do it slowly. He did it for me. He will do it for you. That is hope.

But you can hope for SO MUCH more. The promise He gave to Abraham is now given to you.

What are the promise (covenant) for Abraham (Genesis 12:2-3)?

  1. God would make Abraham’s descendants a great nation.
  2. God would bless Abraham materially and make his name great.
  3. God would protect Abraham by blessing those that blessed him and cursing those that opposed Abraham.
  4. God would bless all the families of the earth through Abraham.

These promises are for you, through your faith in Jesus. (Did you read the first part about faith?)

With hope you will have the courage to believe it. Without hope you won’t have the courage to change your thoughts and change your life and see the blessings as they come to you. You won’t recognize them because you aren’t looking for them, because you have no hope.

If you have had a hard life, or if you are having a hard life, you might not think good things can happen to you. But this is in God’s hands… He WANTS to do these things in YOUR life.

So have hope. He has said that these promises are YOURS. He will bring them to pass in your life. have hope. Be encouraged. Live with a bit of hope and it might increase to encouragement and then grow into a tidal wave of positive new growth.

Another source of hope is the fact that God wants us to enjoy our lives. Check it out!

Behold, what I have seen to be good and fitting is for one to eat and drink, and to find enjoyment in all the labor in which he labors under the sun all the days which God gives him–for this is his [allotted] part. – Ecclesiastes 5:18

As Emily put it: do you see that it is right and fitting for us to find enjoyment in our lives?

It starts with the hope that He can do what He has promised to do. He did it for me. He can do it for you.

If you have faith in Jesus Christ completely paying for your sins, then all barriers between you and God are removed and you are a child of God who is no longer separated from Him. You are a child of God. EVERYONE is a child of God, but you have no sin separating Him from you (thanks to Jesus Christ dying on the cross).

I know that many have not had good fathers, so it’s hard to get excited about a Heavenly Father. But trust me… He is a good Father.

He doesn’t do things how I want them. Not when I want them. Not in a way I can easily appreciate. He’s not obviously in my room every day and night. He’s not visible when I wish He was. He doesn’t hug me very often. There is lots to be disappointed about.

BUT. My life gets better and better. I learn to know Him more. I become softer in my heart. I get stronger in my mind. I can help others more. I become more confident. I have more faith. More hope. I see my destiny clearer. I learn and grow and my life looks more and more promising.

And in the last few years I am starting to see Him, hear Him, feel Him, I know Him a bit more.

Slowly. Slowly. Ever increasing.

But wait! there’s more! (like a TV advert). I’ve been reading Eugene Peterson’s Run with Horses. In it he says that we are just like Jeremiah in that God chose us!

The word of the LORD came to me, saying, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you… ” – Jer 1:4-5

run_with_horses.jpgOn page 38-39 Eugene writes (in summary form)… before you knew God, God knew you. We are tempted to think about our world as if we are curious about God, we read about God. But in fact our lives begin with God, not with us. Before we had any questions about Him, He had already chosen us!

God is the center from which all life develops. God is the center of our life – and He chose us before we were born. We are living in the middle of a dramatic eternal story that began thousands of years ago. Our identity does not BEGIN when I start to think, my identity existed even before I was me.

He chose me! He chose you! He chose us for something He is doing in this world. He has a purpose, He has a mission for us. We’re a part of His eternal plan. He chose us, we didn’t choose Him. We fit into His plans, not Him into ours. (Check out what Diana wrote: Lies of Rejection)

So please… have hope! Don’t give up. In the battlefield of the mind, the enemy will try first to take your hope and then remove your faith. He cannot take your salvation, but he would like to cause you to settle for less than best. Don’t do it. Don’t let him even get a toehold.

Having hope will give you the courage to pray for things you need. Hope will cause you to look at the day as if it holds great promise. I know that life may have been hard, it may still be hard, but if you cultivate hope in Jesus, hope in God, hope in this great plan He has for you… then you will begin praying that He completes His work, you’ll pray that He heals you, you’ll pray that He establishes you, you’ll pray that He touches the people around you, you’ll pray that He finds a church where you feel loved and warm.

Hope encourages you to read posts like these two and DO them

Have faith in the fullness of what Jesus Christ did for you. And on top of your foundation of faith… have hope that He will complete His promise to Abraham… in YOUR life, because YOU are a child of God.

(Have faith and have hope. Next I write about love.)

Categories: Hope

FAITH, hope and love – part 1

This post comes in three parts. Faith. Hope. Love.

It is the central issue in Christianity. It is the key to recovery from addiction. It is THE thing to understand if you want to prosper in life.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. – 1 Cor 13:13

This first post is about faith. When you hook into real faith, you will be set free from this world system. Then healing and restoration can come far easier. The next posts will explain how to then go on to more and more growth and healing.

But we start with faith – in the process of getting spiritually free, this is the first step.

FAITH

It is through having faith in Jesus Christ that we move from death into life – right here on this earth and in our lives.

I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, the person whose ears are open to My words [who listens to My message] and believes and trusts in and clings to and relies on Him Who sent Me has (possesses now) eternal life.

And he does not come into judgment [does not incur sentence of judgment, will not come under condemnation], but he has already passed over out of death into life. – John 5:24

Did you see that? It happens NOW. Present tense. It’s available to those who believe and trust and cling to God.

It’s a matter of faith. Faith is what you believe. It’s what you agree is true.

You know how satan tempted Jesus? Jesus was tried and tempted and tested by the words of the enemy. But Jesus had His belt of truth and He stood! In the end, after a while, the enemy left him and went away.

That story about Jesus shows us that our minds are the battlefield. That satan will try and undermine the truth. In my recovery process he messed with my head, trying to talk me out of what I believe.

It went something like this:

Did Jesus die for you Mark? Yes! Are you going to Heaven Mark? Yes! How do you know? Because Jesus said He died for me so I can go to Heaven. (That is your faith.)

So it’s just a matter of what we decide is true and what we FIRMLY believe and cling to. So what do we believe? What does the bible say?

That He died, that He rose again, that His blood was shed for every single sin of mine and all of my sins. The bible says when He comes back it is not to deal with sins… because they are completely dealt with. All of them. He paid it all in advance.

Did Jesus pay for ALL your sins Mark? Yes! How? When He died on the cross. Are you sure? Yes! (That is your faith.)

It’s like He put US$6 trillion into a bank account and He certainly hopes we spend it by withdrawing it. But who knows, we may get to the end of time and find that only US$2 trillion was withdrawn.

Anyway, if you agree that He paid for YOUR sins, then if the accuser of the brothers is looking for someone to accuse, he needs to look somewhere else, even YOUR future sins are paid for in full.

But you’re still sinning! Surely you should have stopped by now!! God is working on me. I trust Him. You’re doing these things compusively… Jesus didn’t pay for these sins did He? Yes, He paid for everything! No way… are you sure He will help you?? Yes. He will do what He promised to do for me. (That is your faith.)

When your faith in Jesus says that this is in fact what He has done for you… you are moved over from the kingdom of darkness, into the Kingdom of Light. As Jesus said so many times… your faith has saved you, or your faith has healed you.

And Jesus said to him, Receive your sight! Your faith (your trust and confidence that spring from your faith in God) has healed you. – Luke 18:42

Your faith in Jesus Christ heals the separation that sin brings between humanity and our Father in Heaven. There is no separation if you believe that is what Jesus did for you.

You’re a really difficult son. I don’t think God expected anyone to sin again and again. He chose me. He brought me to Him. He sees the end from the beginning. He knew. It’s ok! Are you sure?? Yes. (That is your faith.)

Your faith in Jesus Christ completely pays for all of your sin, past, present and future. It’s not that you stop sinning, but that your sins are paid for.

If you believe that He utterly paid for them, then the enemy has no legal rights to your life whatsoever.

He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross. In this way, he disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities. He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross. – Col 2:14-15

If the enemy has absolutely NO charges to lay against us – not even generational iniquity/sin – then he has not foothold and he can be driven away from your life entirely (over time) because Jesus paid for your sins.

It’s been years and you’re still addicted. Something has gone wrong. He won’t restore you. He chose me. He promised to restore me. He has restored me SO MUCH. He will complete His good work! No no, you’re wrong. In Jesus Name I declare that you have NOTHING in me. I am hidden in Him. I rebuke you… get away from me. (That is your faith.)

Your faith in Jesus Christ has brought you out from under law, so you can no longer be judged under the law. You are now under the grace (undeserved kindness and mercy)… if you believe that Jesus did this for you.

Your faith in Jesus Christ has completely removed the power of death and curses from your life, if you agree and have faith that He did this on the cross. He did it. The bible says He did it. Now it’s up to you to say that He did it, and He did it for you.

Then as the bible says in Ephesians 6:14. STAND on the TRUTH of what He has done and don’t budge one inch away, no matter what happens. Don’t budge. Don’t shift. Stand on the truth.

Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth - Eph 6:14

God made Abraham righteous when Abraham believed that God can do what He said He will do.

Now it’s up to you. Jesus is God. Can Jesus deliver you from sin, death and law? If you believe He can do what He said He can do… then you are made righteous with our Father in Heaven.

If you are clothed in righteousness, it’s like having armor to resist the spiritual attack of the enemy

and the body armor of God’s righteousness. – Eph 6:14

It is not your righteousness, but the robes of righteousness that Jesus secured for you when He died in your place and paid for everything you will ever do that falls short of God’s perfect standards.

Just one warning that comes from my own experience and from watching people around me.

If you are struggling with a lot of bondage and that kind of spiritual stuff, this is the shortest route to freedom, but the enemy will resist. He cannot undo Christ’s sacrifice, but he will try to cause you to change your mind.

battlefield_of_the_mind.jpgJoyce Meyer wrote a book called “The battlefield of the mind” and this is exactly right.

Faith is a decision taken in your mind. The battlefield in there – in your mind. If the enemy can talk you OUT of your faith that Jesus has completely washed you clean of sin… if you won’t believe that then he regains all of his legal rights that sin brings.

This is not about salvation, it’s about complete spiritual freedom.

If you take this path, remember to STAND and put on the TRUTH (Eph 6:14).

Jesus was tried and tempted and tested by the words of the enemy. We are too. But Jesus had His belt of truth and He stood! In the end, after a while, the enemy left him and went away.

The enemy does not like to lose ground. He will resist losing his grip on you too. But he will eventually leave and move away. Amen.

Categories: Faith

You have one life… so USE it

2 April 2007 Mark Wilson 3 comments

Preach the gospel always, if necessary use words”….St. Francis of Assisi

What a great quote. It speaks volumes about how the LIFE of a Christian, our willingness to be patient, to share, to give away to needy people whatever we find that have extra in our lives – basically it’s our desire to love.

It brings to mind this quote from Paul about our LIVES being the very example (an epistle, a letter)

You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody. – 2Co 3:2

I like how the NLT puts it

The only letter of recommendation we need is you yourselves. Your lives are a letter written in our hearts; everyone can read it and recognize our good work among you. – 2Co 3:2

HOW we live our lives, our choices, our willingness to love others, to show kindness… and not our words, not our teaching, not our theology… it’s our lives and the choices we make and the way that we live which sets us apart from the world.

Categories: Church