Before I left on my holiday about 2+ months ago, I spent time with an elder who I pray with to deal with my “stuff”. I had recently remembered a very hurtful memory and I was telling her about it. The memory showed me the tremendous pain that I had felt day in and day out for the formative years of my life. Tears welled up in my eyes as I felt things, as I realized the damage I am/was carrying.
She looked at me and said (in a rather tough way): “no matter how much you cry, it cannot undo that you didn’t receive the love that a child needs”.
Yeouch! A punch to the kidneys. I reeled a bit. I suppose I expected compassion, but what is this? Ouch, it hurts.
She then showed me the heart of God, like I had never seen before… His desire and ability to heal people who have profoundly deep hurts which have shaped their entire lives.
He says right now to those people: “This is what I want you to do….”
… nurse and be satisfied from her (God’s) consoling breasts, that you may drink deeply and be delighted with the abundance and brightness of her (God’s) glory.
For thus says the Lord: Behold, I will extend peace to (you) like a river…
then you will be nursed, you will be carried on her hip and trotted [lovingly bounced up and down] on her [God’s maternal] knees.
As one whom his mother comforts, so will I comfort you; you shall be comforted in Jerusalem.
When you see this, your heart shall rejoice; your bones shall flourish like green and tender grass. – Is 66:11-14
I can honestly say that this is a part of my prayer life every day now. I pray something like this:
Please God, nurse me, comfort me as a mother would have comforted me. Meet my inner need that has been unmet.
Help me to drink deeply from you, so my bones (the inner me) can flourish (heal and grow).
Trot me on Your knee, show me Your delight in who I am. Bounce me lovingly on Your knees as we have fun together. Show me Your heart for me.
Help me to feel delighted with the abundance and brightness of Your glory that You can pour into me.
Thank You for loving me.
And I can say honestly that since I began to ask Him for this, I just feel better. I do! I smile. The day seems brighter. He is doing a deeper work in me that no amount of crying could ever match.
This is a word that is in season for some people. It’s a word that is worth keeping aside for friends who are in need of healing.
Praise God for elders! Wahoo! Our God is a great God!