Healing the broken inner person


Before I left on my holiday about 2+ months ago, I spent time with an elder who I pray with to deal with my “stuff”. I had recently remembered a very hurtful memory and I was telling her about it. The memory showed me the tremendous pain that I had felt day in and day out for the formative years of my life. Tears welled up in my eyes as I felt things, as I realized the damage I am/was carrying.

She looked at me and said (in a rather tough way): “no matter how much you cry, it cannot undo that you didn’t receive the love that a child needs”.

Yeouch! A punch to the kidneys. I reeled a bit. I suppose I expected compassion, but what is this? Ouch, it hurts.

She then showed me the heart of God, like I had never seen before… His desire and ability to heal people who have profoundly deep hurts which have shaped their entire lives.

He says right now to those people: “This is what I want you to do….”

… nurse and be satisfied from her (God’s) consoling breasts, that you may drink deeply and be delighted with the abundance and brightness of her (God’s) glory.

For thus says the Lord: Behold, I will extend peace to (you) like a river…

then you will be nursed, you will be carried on her hip and trotted [lovingly bounced up and down] on her [God’s maternal] knees.

As one whom his mother comforts, so will I comfort you; you shall be comforted in Jerusalem.

When you see this, your heart shall rejoice; your bones shall flourish like green and tender grass. – Is 66:11-14

I can honestly say that this is a part of my prayer life every day now. I pray something like this:

Please God, nurse me, comfort me as a mother would have comforted me. Meet my inner need that has been unmet.

Help me to drink deeply from you, so my bones (the inner me) can flourish (heal and grow).

Trot me on Your knee, show me Your delight in who I am. Bounce me lovingly on Your knees as we have fun together. Show me Your heart for me.

Help me to feel delighted with the abundance and brightness of Your glory that You can pour into me.

Thank You for loving me.

And I can say honestly that since I began to ask Him for this, I just feel better. I do! I smile. The day seems brighter. He is doing a deeper work in me that no amount of crying could ever match.

This is a word that is in season for some people. It’s a word that is worth keeping aside for friends who are in need of healing.

Praise God for elders! Wahoo! Our God is a great God!

10 responses to “Healing the broken inner person

  1. I Praise God this day for this website! I have been following Oprah Winfreys’ Lifeclass which has triggered some deep soul searching. I needed clarity on how to know I am truly loving myself. I have been online all morning on personality webs and such. This site was the only biblically based. Happy to report that my life is not as off as I thought, given that there has been much upheaval in my life. I am glad that I made the choice at age 14 to give my life to God. The journey has been filled with storms, but I continue to hold onto my anchors of LOVE–FAITH–HOPE. My heart feels much better for the support and uplife.

  2. I Praise God this day for this website! I have been following Oprah Winfreys’ Lifeclass which has triggered some deep soul searching. I needed clarity on how to know if a person is truly loving oneself. I have been online all morning on personality webs and such. This site was the only biblically based. Happy to report that my life is not as off as I thought given that there has been much upheaval in my life. I am glad that I made the choice at age 14 to give my life to God. The journey has been filled with storms, but I continue to hold onto my anchors of LOVE–FAITH–HOPE.

  3. I just read over this and it is life changing! I prayed your beautiful prayer as well! Thanks for sharing =) God bless you!

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  6. Hi Bill!

    Great to hear from you my friend. I really love that quirky image of your peering backwards over your car seat.

    That is a great verse, that’s for sure. Very encouraging to think just how great our God really is. Imagine being able to speak entire worlds into existence! Awesome.

    Love rocks.

    Bless you,
    Mark.

  7. Hi John

    > You really have a good grasp of how God wants to deal with
    > His children about healing those old hurts.

    Mate, I can’t take credit for this. I was blind and lost and He found me. 🙂

    > I pray I can stick this post way down deep into my heart

    I will pray that for you too. In Jesus name I pray that John and his wife can really come into their time of healing and that the same God who spoke this world into being, that same God whose words (when spoken) never return unfulfilled… that same God will speak healing to John and his wife, that loving God will speak health and life into their marriage and their lives, individually and together as a couple. I ask this in Jesus mighty name!

    > Is it okay if I copy this and put it in my Bible so I can study
    > this?

    I’d be honored to have something I wrote help you John.

    Nothing I write here has any protection or copyright. I pray that it helps someone. Anyone.

    Bless you,
    Mark.

  8. Yes, my friend, this really speaks to the heart of our struggles. One passage that is always in my heart, one that I pray for myself and others often is Ephesians 3:14-21…

    14For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15from whom his whole family[a] in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

    20Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

    Blessings to you my friend,
    -bill

  9. Now, this is one I am going to need to read over and over a few times just to get the meat out out of it. Wow! It is so good. You really have a good grasp of how God wants to deal with His children about healing those old hurts. Man, I pray I can stick this post way down deep into my heart. There’s so much here in so few words. Is it okay if I copy this and put it in my Bible so I can study this? It is so good.

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