Another wonderful thing is coming out. A week or two back God challenged me. He said “will you accept your identity?” I cautiously said yes.
For a long time my life has been coming into view. The hurts. The experiences. The trauma. The stuff. I wondered WHY. How could He let it happen. Why is my experience of life so radically different to others?
During this time of not blogging, I’ve been growing in insight into this world and where humanity fits into it. I see our fallenness and I see the love of God for us. Slowly… slowly… the bible’s message is becoming clearer to me.
The gifts that I’ve had most of my life – which usually have been a burden – have now become something that I see are actually gifts for the people around me. Now that I’m growing strong, I can handle them. I can run and not get tired so easily. I still get tired very fast, but not as fast as before.
As usual, each spiritual growth spurt was preceded by a challenge. As I faced the challenge and then made my choice to follow the simplicity of the bible, the simplicity of the message of love… then I’d come through and receive more of God.
I usually find myself in a dry place for a while and I feel like God is absent. Then I find myself facing a source of water, but the water doesn’t match up to what the bible says the water would be like. Will I drink it? I am thirsty. Will I drink, or refuse it… because this water is not like what the bible said it would be? But I’m so thirsty.
I refused the counterfeit in Jerusalem and I was rewarded. I faced the same a few months ago and was rewarded. I faced it on the weekend and refused it… and once again I am feeling like God is sharing with me. I’m getting greater perspectives on Jesus and the bible and on the promises He made and how we can receive them all.
I also know that He wants me to share them on this blog. He said to me “what is the use of salt that has lost it’s saltiness” and I replied “it is worthless”. He said “what is the use of a prophet who won’t prophesy?” (this is surely also a challenge to someone else reading this)
I struggle with that word “prophet”… because I can’t tell the future! Isn’t that what prophets do? I’ve heard so many people say things that simply don’t happen that I think we should return to stoning false prophets. hehehe.
Then I saw this verse (1 Cor 12:29) in which the Amplified uses the original language to define a prophet as someone who is “inspired to interpret of the will and purposes of God“. I’m waaaay more comfortable with that. You want an opinion on what’s up? Yeah I can do that! Opinions on what the bible is saying to us today in our lives? Dude… I’ve got tons of those. hehehe.