Another pause


And He said to them, [As for you] come away by yourselves to a deserted place, and rest a while–for many were [continually] coming and going, and they had not even leisure enough to eat. – Mark 6:31

Coming from my damaged background, I’ve had to go through a vast amount of emotional growth and overcome an enormous amount of spiritual junk – just to get to where I am.

Well… I’m tired of going through emotional growth. Fed up and sick of it. It’s freaking never ending!

I’m tired of trying to help people who don’t want to be helped. I’m tired of hoping for the best for people whose hearts are not set on truth or love, but on tearing down and destroying.

I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of being weird. I’m tired of selfish friends who don’t give back to me. I’m tired of not having enough from God to meet my needs. I’m tired of debt. I’m tired of rubbish teaching in the church. I’m tired of God’s promises that I don’t get… while other people get their promises right away.

I’m just tired. And I know that some of you know how I feel. hehehehe.

PS – Last night as I spent time with God, I began to look at the ministry of Jesus in a new light. How He mainly worked with people who embraced Him. Even while salvation is available for everyone, it is only effective for those who choose Him. And today in a comment Emily gave me some links that have great bible verses in them. I’ll blog about them when I return.

I’m really glad to say that I think I have somewhat of a go-forward plan.

God bless you guys,
Mark.
markrobertwilson @ gmail . com

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3 responses to “Another pause

  1. Yup! Been there! I can totally relate!

    I’m excited about your new blog for men. Being a single mom of 3 young men who are fast approaching adulthood, I am always on the look out for good stuff for them…AND they read blogs!! Thanks!! (don’t worry, I won’t look…you need the ‘No Girls Allowed’ sign 😉

    Hi rindy. Thanks for that. God bless you, Mark.

  2. Praying for you right this minute!!
    Peace my brother,
    Neva

    PS–I am sure Messiah felt many of those same feelings–perhaps in our strivings to become like Him, we must also experience some of His frustrations.
    Just a thought
    N

    Thanks Neva. 🙂

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