- Marriage Pt 3 – God’s vision for marriage
- Marriage Pt 2 – safe with each other
- Marriage Pt 1 – God is so good
- (OLD POST) Men, women, love and attraction
- (OLD POST) Creating deep intimacy (into-me-see) in relationships
God has been working hard on getting me ready for my future wife.
I keep wondering if a woman can really go where I want to go in Jesus Christ. Now before you get offended, hear me out. I love kids, but I see too many men travelling for ministry and leaving their families behind. I just can’t imagine doing this. It would tear all of us apart. But would she want to travel and have unreliability in her life and in her family? I fully expect trouble because of my beliefs… in fact I’m planning on it. Would she want that too?
So I have many times offered to Him that I don’t get married and He meets my needs and I am just His disciple. And yet He persists that I should wait for my wife. He maintains the line. Holds the ground. He is consistent. Most recently He gave me this verse…
Remain tonight, and in the morning if he will perform for you the part of a kinsman, good; let him do it. But if he will not do the part of a kinsman for you, then, as the Lord lives, I will do the part of a kinsman for you. Lie down until the morning. – Ruth 3:13
In this verse I believe God is saying that if my partner chooses not to be with me and won’t go into the destiny I am headed for, He will be my “kinsmen”. But clearly His first choice is for me to connect to her.
Many people say I would be a great husband and dad, but my past experiences speak loud volumes against me getting involved again. I’m not the perfect man and I have issues and weaknesses, but I have done the hard yards to prepare for her. I have changed inside and I have been praying for her for several years now.
It is amazing to me that God would turn down my offer of working only for Him. He spoke through Srey on saturday night that God really really wants me to experience the warmth of love in my life, because I haven’t experienced it in my life.
How amazing God is. He wants truly the best for us.